Friday, December 31, 2010

New Years

It being New Years and all has put me in a reflective mood. I have been thinking about all the changes 2010 has brought to my life. People who have come, people who have gone. Places I have moved, things I have seen. Interested I have gained, hobbies I have found.

Without a doubt, this year has been the most challenging of my life. Every week was a struggle. It seemed that every time something would start going well, an unexpected event would set my life for an unwelcome spin. Which brings me to the lesson I have learned from 2010... drum roll please..... let life happen and love it.

Now before you get all disappointed in my weak sauce life lesson, you have to understand me. I have been on a life plan since I was 12 years old. I have been so driven and wanted to force things to happen according to what I wanted (ok maybe a bit of a control freak). But you never can account in your plan for all the turns life makes. Some have been bad and challenged my will to hang on, others have been unexpectantly beautiful. I know now that no matter the up or down, this is my life! Everything is going to make me who I need to be. I will accomplish my dreams, but Im just going to let God lead me where He feels I need to be. He knows me and loves me. Everything finds a way to work itself out without me being a stress case over it. If things are meant to be, they will. If there is something better, life will lead me towards that better thing.

Top 10 Best Memories of 2010....
1. Vegas New Years 2010, hearing someone say they love me for the first time
2. My Sisters Wedding in Portland, dancing at the reception with my Aunt
3. Vegas Shopping Spree, picking out a pair of Jimmy Choos and Armani
4. Camping in Strawberry Valley, setting up a camp site, sitting by the fire
5. Riding my bike on the abandoned road in Provo, finding my own special place
6. Swimming through the narrows at Lake Powell, being covered in stuff I dont even want to know...
7. Learning how to snowboard, learning how to communicate to someone my needs
8. Watching the meteor shower on an air mattress, realizing no matter what time passes, true friendship is never lost
9. Roadtrip to California, making new friendships with an amazing group of people
10. Vegas for my brothers wedding, laying by the Bellagio pool with my family, drinking lime and bitters

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Whats My Name

Hey boy, I really wanna see if you can go downtown with a girl like me....

Italian Cameo Jewelry

I love Cameo Jewlery!!! So classic and beautiful. Each one is hand-carved from semi-precious gemstones.

This is my Cameo from my Grandmother. She passed away when I was in middle-school. Two Christmases ago, my mother found this ring in the safe. Grandma bought it for me in Italy and told my mother to give it to me when I was older. The fact that she had been gone for so long and then it was given to me made it mean so much more. Whenever I miss her I wear it.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010


I am so grateful that I grew up in Montana. It is such a beautiful state. Here are some pictures of Yellowstone... I lived just 45 minutes north. There is nothing quite like fresh snow that piles on tree tops. I love the way it sparkles in the sun. So tranquil and pure.

Sunday, December 26, 2010


I love the Nutcracker. Whenever I hear the music at Christmas time it reminds me of all the dances I used to do when I danced with Montana Ballet Company. My favorite role was Arabian- just a bit sexy. :)

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Sex God.... aka STING

I love the Police.... so many awesome songs... ROXANE... WALKING ON THE MOON.... SHES TOO GOOD FOR ME.... CANT STAND LOSING YOU... DONT STAND SO CLOSE TO ME...

What makes the Police even better is Sting. I have loved him since I was a little girl, and now I can appreciate his sexy beyond sexiness.

Heidi Klum

So I am half German, which means that when I get a little older I look half as hot as Heidi :) hahahah I love her! She is so spunky, fun, and beautiful. Such an amazing business woman and mother....
I love her hair in this one
Her eyes are so captivating
I can't wait to get my tan back!!!
So freaking cute... love the 50s look. A perfect pinup
Legs for days...
Hello flat abs! I love her hair too, even though it is a wig...
Ok... so like sexiest picture of all time. I hope I am this sexy to my husband some day :)
Such an alluring smile

Nude Face

Not wearing make-up with confidence and still looking amazing is the true sign of beauty.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Love Languages

Tonight I am wondering if there is something to the "love languages" thing or I have just convinced myself of that. If there were no truth to it, then how is it possible for two people to love the hell out of each other but not feel that love? How is it possible that my boyfriend can spend four hours giving me a snowboarding lesson, then make me dinner, then do the dishes, then give me a back rub and I still don't feel fulfilled? Am I the most difficult person on the planet to love?
I KNOW that he loves me! I could count on one hand the number of guys I have met in my entire lifetime who would go to such great lengths for me. Is there something wrong with me? All day I found myself craving his touch. Craving his eye contact. Craving the words of expression of the love he has. It seems as though it is one of the great tragedies of my life- to love so much and know that love is returned and just not be able to FEEL it.
Maybe I just don't know how to receive love. Should I just adapt and learn to think, oh this means he loves me. Or is it something bigger than that? Is it an impulse like left or right handedness? Sure I could learn to write with my left hand, but going against my nature, will it ever look or feel as good?
I mean come on! My hell, the man did everything, including save me life, to show his love for me! I feel so guilty for wanting more- like a selfish child who was given a plethora of toys, but she begs for the only one she doesn't have.
I wanted him to lay down next to me. Brush the hair from my face, look into my eyes and tell me some sweet nothing about how much he loves me. But even then, how long does my fulfillment last? Maybe it is not a matter of how he gives love, but rather how much. I have an insatiable appetite for his love. Is that unhealthy in some way?
I feel like this whole situation is unfair. For it to work, it will have to be more difficult than it needs to be. For it to fail, we may be losing someone that loves us so deeply, it could be impossible for lightning to strike twice in such a marvelous way. For it to work, either he or I will have to threaten our nature and learn to give or receive love in a foreign way. It will either be a ridiculous amount of work for him, or me learning to coach myself through his love for me.
I love the man like crazy- never have I met someone I have loved so deeply. But if it takes so much for me to feel loved back, is it worth it? Is it worth to feel more loved by a man that I don't love as much? Obviously, that is a contradiction because if I don't love him as much, his expression of love towards me wont mean as much.
I dont know what the answer is... this is mitzi's search for understanding.

Saturday, December 4, 2010


Italian Beaches- mystical how the water is more blue....
I love the homes that are build on top of each other on the cliffs ... yellow, orange, pink
I can imagine the water splashing against the rocks... the sound of chaotic tranquility
Olive oil, tomatos, seafood, PASTA
Caprese is my favorite food.... basil, mozzarella, tomato, olive oil, balsamic vinegar, salt
The road to self discovery
ROMA!!!!!!!!!! I want to live here....
Ah the architecture. There is a reason it has withstood the test of time.
Wandering the streets of Rome, curious at every surprise around each corner.
My favorite things are the bridges along the boardwalk at night
The cobblestone corridors which have been walked on by people for centuries. Each on their own path, each searching for meaning.

Something is waiting for me there. Something calls my name and the butterflies make me feel the sense of urgency that only being there would relieve. I love the Roman way of life- everyone deserves a break, everyone deserves to enjoy life- the smallest parts from a painting, to a walk along the boardwalk, to a fabulous meal, to the connection between friends. Life is meant to be enjoyed. Stressing yourself out over the small day to day chores, make a life not worth living. No regrets- joy, peace, balance, harmony, beauty, love.