Monday, September 27, 2010

The Sun by Mae

I'm a mess, I guess.
It's what I've asked for, it's what I've needed.
Well, you know me better than,
or at least you did then something happened.
But once again, well, something's happened.
The confidence you held in us is
the rope we almost hung ourselves with.
At times I wonder if we really took the steps
to break right through it.
I know that there were better days,
but to see the light and to feel the rays.
Life was always back and forth
and we were idling or making useless progress.

Waiting for the rain to stop.
Destination: beautiful.
Seems that I'm still waiting for the sun. (Whoa yeah)
Someday will come back to us, if you're willing, let it go.
Why won't you just let this be your sun? (oh oh)
It seems like yesterday we had the world our way.
But some (whoa) say we're headed for destruction.

i'll ask you "What in the world should we do?"
This light is green our break is through.
Are we not trying or we're trying too hard?
Well, you know I never want to miss,
I hold on tight and reminisce.
But it's bittersweet to me.
When time stands still as it's trapped inside
the letterbox you gave back to me.
But I'm the one who keeps on reading.
But I'm the one who wants to let it go.
I'm the first to speak.
You're the last to know.
Another scene that we're creating,
I need to know if we're still making useless progress.

Waiting for the rain to stop.
Destination: beautiful.
Seems that I'm still waiting for the sun. (Whoa ohh)
Someday will come back to us, if you're willing let it go.
Why won't you just let this be your sun? (whoa ohh)
It seems like yesterday we had the world our way.
But some (whoa) say we're headed for destruction.

Waiting for the rain to stop.
Destination: beautiful.
Seems that I'm still waiting for the sun.
Someday will come back to us, if you're willing let it go.
Why won't you just let this be your sun?
It seems like yesterday we had the world our way.
But some (whoa) say we're headed for destruction. (whoaaa...)

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Pearl by Katy Perry

My favorite thing sung by my favorite person about exactly what I am going through. What are the odds!? :)

She is a pyramid But with him she's just a grain of sand This love's too strong like mice and men Squeezing out the life that should be let in  She was a hurricane (cane-cane-cane) But now she's just a gust of wind She used to set the sails of a thousand ships Was a force to be reckoned with  She could be a Statue of Liberty She could be a Joan of Arc But he's scared of the light inside of her So he keeps her in the dark  Oh, she used to be a pearl ooooh Yeah she used to rule the world, ooooh Can't believe she's become a shell of herself Cause she used to be a pearl  She was unstoppable Move fast just like an avalanche But now she's stuck deep in cement Wishing that they never, ever met  She could be a Statue of Liberty She could be a Joan of Arc But he's scared of the light inside of her So he keeps her in the dark  Oh she used to be a pearl ... ooooh Yeah she used to rule the world ... oooh Can't believe she's become a shell of herself Cause she used to be a ..  Do you know that there's a way out, there's a way out There's a way out, there's a way out You don't have to be held down, be held down Be held down, be held down  Cause I used to be a shell Yeah, I let him rule my world, my world, oh yeah But I woke up and grew strong and I can still go on And no one can take my Pearl You don't have to be a shell ... noooooo You're the one that rules your world ... oooooh You are strong and you'll learn that you can still go on And you'll always be a A pearl  She is unstoppable 

Harley Davidson!!!



Ahhhh I want a Harley so Bad! Next Summer it's on!

My new Beauty/ Fashion Icon

Brigitte Bardot is famous for the ratty beehive style hair, dark eyes, and sex appeal. She was a sex icon for John Lennon and Paul McCartney. She is most famous for have saying "It is better to be unfaithful than be faithful without wanting to be." She had a long movie and music career.









It is time to have a make-over and change up my look.... So who better than Brigitte Bardot.


Friday, September 24, 2010

Vintage Vogue




Thursday, September 23, 2010

To remember better days

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HohnlWnQPvs




Sunday, September 19, 2010

Change

What a challenge to look at the reality that has engulfed my life and accept it. This year has been a devistation of losses for me. Oh, I know what I'm supposed to say.. I've lost so many good friends but gained so many vital life lessons. Truth is all I feel is lost and alone. The more I try to grab on to reason the more it slips through my fingers.

My best friend Lexi and I split ways in April when our lives forked in very different directions. I believe in living a life of moderation, but she found it difficult to find the balance. After court dates, school trials, and parental intervention, she still didn't let it change her ways. She no longer cared for herself and therefore couldn't care for me. She treated me like trash and the more I tried to empathize with her the more she pushed me away. Now there is nothing left except anxiety and empty space between us.

My sister got stolen by her future husband. I don't harbor any bad feelings towards either of them and know they are in the next phase of life. My whole life I have been the baby and all my siblings got to go where I couldn't follow. One by one they left for college until all that was left was me in a big empty house. The truth is though that I miss her and I'm going to the rest of my life. She has once again gone where I cannot follow. I miss not having a person to be around who didn't make me edit my life. She knew everything about me and now there is noone who I can be around without having to put a face on for. It has caused me to isolate myself and I seem to be spending more time alone.

Lastly, Im sure we dont even have to say his damn name. Frankly I dont want to. But yeah- there WAS him too.