Sunday, May 29, 2011

Such as shame for us to part





Waiting for the pain to go away is like wishing heavy dark clouds across the sky. I wish so badly they would notice the anguish they cause below and move faster. But i can't encourage them any more than I can my heart to heal. There they drift.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Things to explore...

THE UNQUALIFIED TRUTH IS, THAT WHEN I LOVED ESTELLA WITH THE LOVE OF A MAN, I LOVED HER SIMPLY BECAUSE I FOUND HER IRRESISTIBLE. ONCE FOR ALL; I KNEW TO MY SORROW, OFTEN AND OFTEN, IF NOT ALWAYS, THAT I LOVED HER AGAINST REASON, AGAINST PROMISE, AGAINST PEACE, AGAINST HOPE, AGAINST HAPPINESS, AGAINST ALL DISCOURAGEMENT THAT COULD BE. ONCE FOR ALL; I LOVED HER NONETHELESS BECAUSE I KNEW IT, AND IT HAD NO MORE INFLUENCE IN RESTRAINING ME, THAN IF I HAD DEVOUTLY BELIEVED HER TO BE HUMAN PERFECTION. Charles Dickens


Thursday, May 26, 2011

Twilight Concert Series 2011

MY FAVORITE PART ABOUT SUMMER IN UTAH!!!!!! They just posted the artist lineup for the Twilight Concert Series.... Im so freaking excited.

http://twilightconcerts.com/

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Rad pics of the day!

Oh my starry eyed surprise....
Yes... that is Aaron Eckhart with my brother, Miles.
Beauty at any age...
Reminds me of hiding in my apple tree when I was growing up.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Friday, May 20, 2011

My Dream House

So this is mild to moderately stalker of me... but I am in love with this house up past Vivian park. I love everything about it: location, windows, color, layout. I want this home someday.... either this exact one or one I build just like it. Enjoy....



Thursday, May 19, 2011

California

In February, I took a trip to California. This trip was very meaningful as it had the purpose of reminding me who I am. Most of my days were spent watching old family videos and reconnecting with the little blonde girl who too often was their star. Remembering who I am, my strengths, the beauty of my individuality. Much had happened that shook me as a person. I felt as though I was destroying the parts of me that were added by other people and influences. Now I hold close the characteristics of my soul that make me Mitzi. Moody, witty, independent, selfish, proud, loving, funny, eclectic. Good and bad. I know who I am.Trinidad Beach- those are two guys surfing.
I would take walks in the sand and just listen to what the ocean had to say.




My parent's house is right here, looking at Trinidad bay. On sunny days, it is breath-taking.
One of my favorite pictures that I took.


My older sister, Cassandra, and I. She is lovely.



Mom read us the books she ordered to send to Australia for the baby and kids.


A soothing song, I hope you take the time to listen...

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Slow Dancing in a Burning Room

It's not a silly little moment,
It's not the storm before the calm.
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on.

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

I was the one you always dreamed of,
You were the one I tried to draw.
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.

I'll make the most of all the sadness,
You'll be a bitch because you can.
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?

My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room.

Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Monday, May 16, 2011

Success, like Happiness

Unless you have lived under a rock, you probably get the reference that the title of my blog is linked to- Man's Search For Meaning by Viktor Frankl. It is a book for anyone questioning life and seeking their own personal value. I came across this quote today by Viktor and would like to share....

"Again and again I therefore admonish my students in Europe and America: Don't aim at success - the more you aim at it and make it a target, the more you are going to miss it. For success, like happiness, cannot be pursued; it must ensue, and it only does so as the unintended side effect of one's personal dedication to a cause greater than oneself or as the by-product of one's surrender to a person other than oneself. Happiness must happen, and the same holds for success: you have to let it happen by not caring about it. I want you to listen to what your conscience commands you to do and go on to carry it out to the best of your knowledge. Then you will live to see that in the long-run - in the long-run, I say! - success will follow you precisely because you had forgotten to think about it."

Bachelorette Pad

Well I have been so productive like a superfox do. Taking care of myself, my life, and my bizness. Still being unemployed, I have had a lot of time on my hands to do projects to my heart's content. So far many of the projects have had to do with my favorite activity- nesting. Growing up, where ever I would go in the house I would bring various items to help me make the area feel like my own. So I have been making my house beautiful and a bachelorette pad major! Here I am going to be sharing some of my various projects....

Just finished painting my bathroom an hour ago.... next I will be decorating with Celine. I will keep you posted. This bathroom used to be a baby boy sky blue color. AWFUL. Now it is going to be a beautiful place for us superfoxes to get ready.
I got this Sewing machine from my mother last Christmas. I am so excited to start sewing curtains for our living room and table cloths and stuff. Starting off with easy things... it has been a while since I have sewn.
NOW FOR THE FUN STUFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love that I live with 5 hot, fun, single girls. We live it up and so we made some home improvements to reflect our bomb diggity bachelorette lifes.
Presenting the 10 foot by 6 foot white board!!!!!!!! We write all types of things on it- quotes for the week, our summer bucket listnotes to eachother, funny things that happen, and we may or may not keep track of how many boys each of us kisses (and I may or may not be in the lead so far). This baby takes up almost the entire wall.
So I was messing around down in our basement, and I found our 6th male roommate, Tommy. Talk about an ideal roommate: he always looks fierce, he is clean, he is quiet, and he greets me every morning. This is one of those HUGE posters from an Abercrombie store! I know, I know, I am pretty much a bad ass for coming up with this idea. TALK about fabulous. No bachelorette pad is complete without one of these bad boys.



Monday, May 9, 2011

Spring Fling


Spring has been very welcome to me this year. A time of new beginnings. Renewal. A fresh start. Driving down the canyon from work has become my new favorite past time. The winding creek I follow makes the most soothing babble. I am a windows down kinda gal- the sun and wind on my face make me feel so alive. The sensation of warmth and cool rejuvenate me. It is ecstasy for my senses.
Last Friday, even though it was 8 when I got off work, I couldn't keep myself indoors. I had to go for a run. The aura of the environment was so intoxicating. It was a special night. Do you ever have those times? When things in the universe just click for a while and you feel so at peace. I wonder if I am the only one in that moment who realizes it. Maybe it is a special time, just for me. A little reminder from God of His unconditional love for me.
I felt so blessed, I had to share. I wish you the same moments of peace. I bet if you look for them, they will find you.